Friday, March 24, 2006
It's Quittin' Time
(Well, probably not really, but that's how I feel).
Now, I know this will seem like a plea for comments...so let me just say upfront,
It's just me, speaking aloud, my thoughts and feelings.
As I go around the blogosphere, I come to many blogs that are actually talking about important things.
Politics, war, literature, poverty, changing the world.
And here I sit typing about game shows, a dog I loved and lost as a child, pizza toppings, stripping in hotel rooms, and plastic coverings on furniture.
Basically, I write about absolutely nothing of consequence, importance, or bettering the world.
So, I go back to the question, as so many bloggers seem to do at one point or another (in fact, I think I may have already written about this...see, that's what being 50 does, the memory brain cells decrease).
Why do this? Why write inane little stories, that do nothing to make a difference in this world?
Actually, in all honesty, I have no idea.
And, why put it out for public consumption?
I have been enjoying this new pursuit of writing, so why not just keep my own private journal?
The feedback is fun, no doubt about it. For some unknown reason, people come by and read my inane little posts and even take the time to comment.
But, I found myself waking up this morning feeling quite guilty and pathetic all rolled into one.
Why bother writing if you aren't making a difference? Why bother writing if you have nothing provacative to say?
When ever I see another blogger asking similar questions of themselves, I think:
"Oh shut up and write. If you enjoy it, write. If you don't, don't".
So, my conclusion?
I can't become something I'm not...highly political, a well-read literary scholar, a current events aficionado, or an expert on child-rearing.
So, do I just keep writing inane things...wake up feeling guilty and pathetic every few weeks... eat some chocolate and hopefully get over it for a few more weeks?
(Christ, even this very post does absolutely nothing to help better the world).
Or, do I really try to become someone important. Someone of value. Someone of substance. Someone who is really making a contribution.
I just don't know.
Send chocolate, and I'll let you know later.